I'm 24 and now live with my mom, 2 kids, brother and dad, but I'm the only one doing anything around here. I guess I just wanna vent, its so hard watching my mom be in constant pain but also having to do everything for her and everyone else in my house is driving me mad, I don't wanna cry in front of anyone because I'm the strong one. I was a drug addict and I left it all behind to do this because love is stronger thabn any addiction. Bit its emotionally destroying me. I just wish I had help.
Kids cereal
Make my dad's lunch
Take kids to school
Clean up the kitchen bathroom living room
Kids room dads room
Afternoon: mom's medication
Laundry
Make mom and I lunch
Laundry (everyone's)
Groceries
Put groceries away
Pick daughter up
Start dinner
Pick son up
Feed them
Clean up again
Dads and bros dinner
Clean up
Night: moms medicine
Sons medicine
Giv mom bath
Kids bath
Get everyone settld for bed
And sleep till 5am when the cycle starts again.
Not to mention my pup and birds I deal with too, idk what else I could possibly do
Morning:
Moms medicine
Sons medicine
Moms coffee
My coffee
Explain to your dad how important the meetings are and get a sponsor. Call your sponsor every day. That will be a big help. And read the literature. Do you have a Big Book?
Remember to focus on gratitude!!!! Gratitude can really save the day.
Big hug!
And when your father says something like you're going back to the street, just answer him that no, you're going to start a good life for yourself, but you'll still be there to check in on them. My greatest worry for you is the loss of esteem and the anger that goes with living in a toxic environment will pull you back down to where you were. Don't let that happen. (It can happen. I used to smoke, but quit. Sometimes I get so angry that it makes me want to go buy cigarettes. I have to tell myself no, that I'm not going to let this hurt me like that. There are better ways to deal with the anger and hurt of a toxic environment. Hurting myself more seems not a good idea.)