I am truly burned out! Even though I removed myself from my father’s home I’m still stressed dealing with his BS! I was diagnosed with shingles. My father was evaluated by a new psychiatrist, his old psychiatrist transferred his care to a geriatric. Well, as usual he passed with flying colors for depression he scored a 1 so I guess I’m the nut. He is so manipulative. My father had my sister call my brother that had not set foot in his home for over 3 yrs, told him to call the police on me and that he was a prisoner in his own home. He also said he doesn’t know how much money he has in the bank cause I won’t take him. Well my brother didn’t fall for it. He talks really badly about me my father, told the new psychiatrist that I was his big problem. I had one caretaker tell me he is so verbally abusive she called the agency and told them never to send her back to care for him. I guess since he’s still knows the date, time, year no nursing home for him. What other options do I have??? I hired a caretaker that comes for 3 hrs on the weekends and during the week I have one that’s there 2 hrs a day. One caretaker said even though he can do things on his own he wants to be waited on had and foot. My sister tried staying with him but he has her running, she herself has some issues and can’t tolerate his negative behaviors. My brother refuses to care for him although he is saying that he can’t be left alone.
The truth is that it is much more EASY for us to remain in the habitual turnings of our world no matter how awful we understand they are for us. It is difficult to make healthy changes when we have utterly no idea what they might be nor how to do them. That means, for some of us and at some times in our lives (I include MYSELF here) we need the guidance of a good psychologist to help us see the truth of our world and to help guide us in changing for a healthier happier life. A Licensed Social Worker specially trained in life transitions work can work well as well, and is often more easily afforded
Your father? Well, as you were already told, he has his OWN habits which are working quite well for him. He will also have to make changes. As Beattie often says here "There will be no solutions as long as YOU are all the solutions."
The ball is in your court. The choices are your own for your own life and no one can make them for you. And if you choose to make NO changes, then understand that as well is a choice, and that may make it easier. I wish you the very best. Hope you find your way toward things that may help you, and then come back and share them with others here, for you are not alone.
*The right to rot*
If deemed 'competent' he can choose how to live. This including making bad decision, like canceling home help.
It sounds bad... but it will force change faster than enabling him to live alone (when he no longer can).
There is no easy answer with difficult parents. You are going to suffer one way or another. You are suffering less b/c you've moved out of the toxic wasteland. That's a start. Setting your phone to vibrate will cut down on the startle reflex when you hear the phone ring incessantly. At least you can listen to voice mails on YOUR terms and when you are psychically ready to.
When your father verbally abuses you, that's not ok so hang up the phone. Every. Single. Time. He will quickly understand you will not tolerate that behavior from him. Period.
Step back from whatever you can step back from. If the caretakers you've hired quit, they quit. You can't force someone to take care of a very difficult man. If your father needs and wants help, he will realize in short order that he has to treat people in a civilized manner in order to retain that help. If he doesn't, he will likely wind up in the hospital and then rehab, where they won't want to release him back to living alone. THAT is when you may be able to place him in AL or into a Skilled Nursing Facility if he can't be left alone (as determined by the rehab doctors).
In the meantime, make sure to take time for yourself. Meditate, relax, take long baths, get a massage, lunch with friends, etc Try to manage the stress & anxiety you WILL be taking on b/c you have a very difficult father in your life. They don't just magically disappear and going 'no contact' doesn't normally work for the vast majority of us poor slobs. So we try to strike some kind of balance between caring for THEM and caring for OURSELVES. Call your doctor if you need help ie: anti depressants or anti anxiety meds. There is no shame in doing that; you have a lot on your plate and you are human.
Wishing you the best of luck with a difficult situation.
You have stated above that he has passed both a test for cognitive/memory issues and for depression. Are you getting the info directly from his doctors or is he telling you this info? If it's coming from the doctor's mouth to your ears, then your father is capable of taking care of himself.
If you are getting the info from your father, then...maybe it's "not accurate".
Shingles is awful and a testament to what stress you are under. I agree with the others who point out that you are in control of your situation and are not responsible for your father's happiness. Resign from your PoA and move out (as soon as you are able, even if it means "couch surfing" for a while) and move on with your life. Call APS and report him as a vulnerable adult and they will take care of his needs. It will be messy for a while but if you don't but up the boundary no one is going to do it for you. May you have peace in your heart as you are doing nothing wrong by letting him go.
This is too much stress on you (shingles)! Why not resign your POA (assuming you have it), and let someone else take over his care?
Not even 2 months ago you wrote this: " I am still staying 2 or 3 days a week and some weekends i work full time."
Are you still staying with him this amount of time?
I am glad that you moved out. It sounds like you are trying everything possible to resolve these issues. I hope that you are able to place him in a nursing home as soon as possible, so you can have some well deserved peace and quiet.
All the best to you. Take care.
If you are not then step away completely.
If your siblings do not step in and help dad then he can be reported as a vulnerable Senior.
You / the family can talk to an Elder Care Attorney. If your dad is deemed not competent and no one wants to be the responsible party he can be made a Ward of the State and the Court will appoint a Guardian.
If he has been diagnosed with Dementia, you mention Alzheimer's in your profile, he is not competent so a Court will have no problem granting Guardianship. Given that your father will probably be placed in a facility where there is room, you will not get a choice as to the location. You will also not get a say in his care.
If he has actually been diagnosed with dementia who ever is POA can have him placed in Memory Care. The facility does not need his consent. (He legally can not give consent)